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XXX – MultiSEXmedia

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“Multisexmedia is the term I use to define how sex has proliferated throughout every form of modern day media. Sex can be found in obvious sources such as TV, the internet, and magazines, but it can also be found in some of the most unlikely places – such as your child’s cell phone. We are bombarded with sex, which makes it easier for people to become addicted because they are constantly inundated by triggers. Both auditory and visual triggers keep sex at the top of one’s mind, and keep sex addicts focused on finding their next fix. And I was no exception.”
Excerpt from Sex and Surrender: An Addict’s Journey

Addicts’ understanding their trigger(s) is paramount to recovery. If a person is unaware of what is contributing to the addiction, the individual will never be able to take the steps to break the addiction.

As I mentioned in Sex and Surrender, viewing pornography was a major trigger for my sex addiction. Having a Type A personality and watching porn lead me to immediately want to act out sexually. The question that would suddenly pop in my mind was: why watch other people having sex when I could be having sex? And the more porn I watched, the more ideas I got. Why have sex with one person when I could be having sex with two? (Ménage a trois) Why have sex with two people when I could have sex with multiple people? (Orgies) Why have sex with just a woman when I could have sex with a man and a woman? (Bisexuality) One experience after the next, after the next, yet never making a true connection to anyone I was having sex with. And that’s exactly what it was, SEX versus making passionate, intimate, and spiritual LOVE.

EVERYTHING STARTS IN THE MIND!

Whether we are aware of or not we are constantly bombarded by images. For our recovery it’s important that we take inventory of the images, words, and sounds that we are taking in and putting out. All of that information is being processed by the mind, whether one is consciously aware of it or not. Therefore, I had to come to the realization that taking in ANY form of pornography was a trigger which could send me back into an addictive cycle; especially before I got to the root of what was causing my addiction.

Based on my experience, my ongoing therapy, and recovery I devised The Sex Test. The first question on THE SEX TEST is: Do you regularly view or subscribe to pornography in magazines, videos or websites? This is the first question because it shows how something people think is common could actually be a sign of addiction.

To determine if you or someone you love might be struggling with sex addiction, take The Sex Test. The test gives examples of the behavior I exhibited, as well as, behaviors I saw other sex addicts exhibit during addictive cycles. While the test isn’t an exhaustive list of characteristics, traits and behaviors of all sex addicts, it does provide substantive insight.

For me it goes back to my understanding what behaviors and actions are contributing to my addiction. Once I identified those items, the necessary steps were taken to avoid repeating the same behavior or placing myself in an environment which contributes to the behavior. I realized that I couldn’t change what I am unwilling to address and each day I am alive is another day God is giving me to get it right.

Helping others in the Journey,

A.D. Burks

Thanks for Sharing, But…

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I recently watched the movie Thanks for Sharing which included some great actors: Mark Ruffalo, Tim Robbins, Gwyneth Paltrow and the singer Pink. As with anything that sheds light on sex addiction I eagerly awaited to see what this story would reveal. Since the setting of the movie revolved around individuals involved in a 12-Step Program, I knew it would provide more insight into the daily lives of sex addictions than just how addicts act out sexually. The movie Shame focused more on sexual exploits of addicts.

As the movie began, it was great to see everyday people that I could relate to. Portraying characters that are able to function “normally” in society is a strong suit of the movie. The main character and supporting cast have jobs and careers which clearly demonstrate that a sex addict could be working right next to you and you would not know. I would venture to say that that is the case the majority of the time because sex addiction isn’t something you can easily identify. As I’ve stated before: What a person can’t address, they can’t heal! Thus, the sex addicts in the movie typically have to suffer in silence at work, but luckily they have support from members of their 12-Step Program.

The scenes from the 12-Step meetings were another asset of the film. Based on my personal experiences at similar meetings, the non-judgmental open monologue allows addicts to release some of the anger, pain and frustration they are dealing with and know they aren’t alone; other people are in similar circumstances. But most importantly they have someone who cares and is there for support. It goes back to: EVERYONE WANTS TO FEEL LOVED.

While the movie did a good job of showing sex addicts in the process of moving along the road to recovery, it was the portrayal of the main character being unable to ultimately maintain his sobriety is the issue I have with the movie.

Mark Ruffalo’s character had been sober for five years. He starts dating Gwyneth Paltrow and the relationship takes on various aspects of what a person who formerly acted out via sex has to deal with when he or she reveals to the person they are dating their past. Of course the immediate question Gwyneth’s character has is: Where is he in his recovery? Then she has to deal with triggers that would typically not be in an issue with someone without his past. All of this was great to see! They were able to work through these situations logically and lovingly.

After they are able to work through those issues, the remaining question was: Will the addict resurface? Unfortunately in this movie the addict did resurface. After five years of sobriety, in one moment all the hard work went right out the door with the prostitute that left his hotel room. The reason why this is so disturbing to me is because it supports the argument: once an addict, always and addict.

What I feel would be beneficial, is for the producers to follow this movie up with a sequel focusing on Josh Gad’s character a little more. Viewers get a glimpse of what caused his addiction; which was his relationship with him mother. I think if this storyline is further developed it would allow viewers to see, ONCE YOU GET TO THE ROOT OF THE ADDICTION, YOU CAN GET TO A PLACE OF TRUE HEALING! Then the writers could tie the concept of getting to the root cause of an addiction to Mark’s character and allow him to ultimately maintain his sobriety.

The purpose of this blog is to help sex addicts, and/or anyone being affected by sex addiction, to know sex addiction can be beat. For more insight on the steps I’ve used to break the sex addictive cycle and get to root of my sex addiction please review the 4-STEPS page. In addition, you’ll see a self-assessment test and a page of helpful tools.

Helping others in the Journey,

A.D. Burks

STEP 1: Re/Establish a Relationship with God

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Sex Is Not Equal To Love

The prodigal son, I had become;
Deliberately and defiantly veering off course.
Yet patiently You called me
Then I finally sought the One.
– The Answer, A.D.

The first step, STEP 1, is the only step that allowed me to get on the path to breaking the sex addiction cycle. ADDICTION = PAIN and I would have never been able to get to the root of my pain until I first reestablished my relationship with God. Notice I said my relationship with God; not going to church. There is a significant difference. While some people feel going to church equals having a relationship with God, I know that is not the case.

I grew up in the Baptist church. Every Sunday, rain or shine, my mom was going to be in the House of the Lord. Her father retired as a Baptist minister in Columbia, TN; the Bible Belt. Therefore, going to church was second nature to her and it became second nature to me. Nevertheless, going to church didn’t prevent me from becoming a sex addict. As a matter of fact, it actually contributed to me becoming one. WHAT, I know you might be asking. YES!

The primary root of my pain came from having to reconcile my spirituality with my sexuality. Being told men who have sex with men are going to hell, reading in the Bible that men having sex with men was an abomination and society spewing hate for people who loved and expressed their love in a different way created this internal battle that didn’t allow me to have peace. It was a constant struggle. Being attracted to men wasn’t something I wanted because I wanted to go to heaven. Yet it was something I couldn’t ignore or pray away.

So what did I do? I focused on my attraction to women and tried to block those “evil thoughts” of being attracted to men. But the reality is: ONE CAN NOT HIDE FROM ONESELF. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t make the attraction, the man God created me to be, go away. Therefore, I suffered in silence and tried to pretend dating women, while I was longing to be with a man, would make my “evil desires” subside if I could just find the right woman; the woman God had for me.

I had created a list of characteristics and traits the woman I felt God had for me would possess; which were not superficial but biblical. In my mind, once I found her I’d fall in love with her, marry her, have children and never look back on my feelings for men. Regrettably, this is what I thought would play itself out with Megan in my book. Her name was changed to protect her privacy. From that relationship I learned:

God can and will give you exactly what you want and then show you it wasn’t what He had for you.

Megan had all the characteristics and traits on the list but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t fall in love with her. Unlike other areas of my life where I could plan, strategize, and control, I couldn’t force myself to fall in love with her.

The fact that I put Megan through all the heartache of being in a relationship with me when I was unconsciously still struggling accepting myself is deplorable. She never asked to be hurt like that. I pray God blesses her with a man that will honor and love her the way she truly deserves to be treated. Yet so many women and men are being put in the same and similar situations because individuals haven’t accepted themselves. Why? I believe they haven’t truly accepted themselves they have not formed their own relationship with God.

To reconcile my sexuality with my spirituality, I had to go to the source, not man but God. Let me first start by saying this process didn’t happen overnight. If I were to really analyze the process, it was probably the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. Not only did I have to go against the religious doctrine that was instilled and embedded in me since birth, but also against what family and friends who wanted the best for me said. Therefore, for an impatient person, this was also probably one of the longest journeys in my life.

Understanding the context of the passages in the Bible regarding homosexuality was the turning point. When I read the story of Sodom and Gomorrah for myself and took the time to deconstruct what was actually occurring, God revealed that instead of focusing primarily on the men wanting to have sex with the male angels, as most Baptist preachers interpret the text; this story has an underlying theme of rape. These men were not having consensual sex or expressing genuine love through intimacy. They were planning to take by force a mental, physical and emotion space God designed and reserved for two people who truly love each other. Sex wasn’t just created for procreation as some religious leaders like to lead their congregation to believe. If that was the case, why is the probability of a healthy heterosexual couple conceiving in a given month is between 15-25%. Instead the chemicals and endorphins released in the brain during sex create a “high” which also has bonding components to keep a couple connected. Read more about this effect in the book Hooked.

In addition to seeking understanding and clarity for myself, God also brought theologians into my life who were able to give me insight I never would have had since I didn’t go to seminary. When the word homosexual is used in the New Testament, the actual translated word is catamite. If most people knew what the word catamite meant, the discussion around homosexuality would definitely sound different and change. Thanks Bishop for that nugget of wisdom.

Basically, when I reestablished my own relationship with God, He started bringing clarity to all the noise I was hearing. If I could give only one piece of advice to a sex addict or anyone struggling with an addiction:

FORM YOUR OWN RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD

This is the one and only relationship that can and will ultimately start you on the path to breaking the addictive cycle.

I work STEP 1 daily. Like any relationship, one only gets out of it what he/she puts into it. If you already have a relationship with God and are still struggling with sex addiction, go to the 4-STEPS to see the other steps I used to break the sex addictive cycle.

Helping others in the Journey,

A.D. Burks

AIDS & Sex Addiction

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There are no words to describe the horrific toll the Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV) /Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome (AIDS) epidemic has taken on the world. Countless families have been affected by its fatal grip. Thankfully, tremendous advances in medical treatment have made living with HIV more manageable than ever. Nevertheless, the virus continues to spread at alarming rates.

Aids Awareness Day

Speaking at Texas Southern University, for National Black HIV/AIDS Awareness Day

What’s often left out of the discussion on transmission of the disease is the part sex addiction plays. “What we don’t address, we can’t change.” Sex addiction which many feel shouldn’t, or can’t be talked about, or even exist for that matter, needs to be brought into the discussion to determine its true impact on the spread of the virus. When sex addicts “act out,” they are often unconcerned or aware of the health risk they are potentially putting themselves and their partner(s) in.

As a recovered sex addict, who was fortunate not to have contracted the disease, I realize my prior addictive behavior not only put my life in jeopardy, but the lives of all the individuals who I acted out with my addiction. This is the question we need to ask: how many individuals who are unaware they are living with the virus are sex addicts?

Until the impact sex addiction has on the spread of HIV is brought to light, the death toll due to AIDS will continue to climb because “some” thought sex addiction shouldn’t be discussed and/or wasn’t truly an addiction impacting AIDS.

It’s all in the Definition: How I Define a Sex Addict

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Sex Is Not Equal To Love

I admittedly suffered for nearly 12 years with sex addiction. While I am grateful God’s grace was able to bring me out of my addiction; I realize that me being able to recognize I was an addict was crucial. In order for an addict to admit he or she has an addiction, that person must first be able to identify what the addiction is and how it is playing itself out in their lives.

Our current American Society idolizes and praises most men, and a few women, who are known for their sexual conquests. If a person is able to mimic the behavior of a “celebrity,” why would that person feel he/she has a problem; much less an addiction. Therefore, sex addicts are already at a disadvantage of diagnosing their addiction. When people realize that the images being portrayed in the media have substantial consequences which are typically overlooked, ignored and strategically hidden; they will be able to make the connection that their behavior might be a problem. Several don’t realize it until they have their fall from grace.

Tiger Woods, Patrick Dempsey, Kobe Bryant, George Michael, Ted Haggard, Eric Benet, and Jesse James. What do they all allegedly have in common? An addiction that almost ruined their lives and the lives of the people around them.

It seems lately that every time we turn around a new sex addict is being busted by the media. Professional athletes, actors, entertainers, even religious leaders—no one seems to be able to escape the scrutiny. Luckily, I haven’t had to truly endure the public humiliation these men have. Still, my story mirrors theirs. In fact, mine may be worse.

from Sex and Surrender: An Addict’s Journey

So how do I define a sex addict? Let me first start by saying, I am not a licensed professional counselor, nor do I hold any certification in the fields of psychology or psychiatry. However, as a former sex addict, who was diagnosed by a Certified Sex Addiction Therapist (CSAT), I believe my definition can be understood by most lay persons. My definition centers around one of the two main themes in my memoir Sex and Surrender; which is ADDICTION = PAIN.

Sex Addict: a person who uses sex (in whatever form) to handle, manage or escape pain

I placed “in whatever form” in parenthesis because, sex has multiple forms besides the act of sexual intercourse. Someone who just watches porn can be a sex addict. At the root of any addiction is pain. When pain reaches the point where an individual’s number one priority, consciously or unconsciously, becomes acting out sexually (in whatever form) with little or no regard to the consequences the thought or act(s) has on his/her or others’ lives; that person is a sex addict in my opinion.

To get a more technical or clinically accepted definition of sex addiction, I would suggest researching Dr. Patrick Carnes work. He is considered by most the leader on sex addiction recovery. His books Out of the Shadows and Facing the Shadow were helpful in my recovery.

The purpose of this blog posting is to help sex addicts, and/or anyone being affected by sex addiction, gain a clearer definition of a sex addict. For more insight on the habits, characteristics and traits associated with sex addiction please go to The Sex Test. In addition to The Sex Test, which was based on my personal experiences and observations of other sex addicts, the website lists several Helpful Tools.

Helping others in the Journey,

A.D. Burks

Let’s Talk About Sex Addiction

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SEX ADDICTION!!! Is it real? Is it fake? Is it an excuse? Is it an overactive libido? Or could it actually be an addiction?

As someone who suffered for nearly 12 years with sex addiction, I can confirm that it is definitely real. From the addictive cycle highs of finding people you think are the most attractive and engaging in intercourse to the point they beg you to stop; but in the very next breath they ask you to do it again. To the addictive cycle lows where you feel so despondent and regretful that you promise yourself never to engage in that type of behavior again; only to find yourself in less than a week or at most a month right back in the saddle pressing repeat.

Until the true source or sources of pain are identified and addressed, the addictive cycle cannot be broken and the addiction will continue.

Sex addiction, unlike other addictions such as alcohol and drugs, doesn’t typically leave visual indicators. There aren’t the obvious signs like track marks on a person’s arm, breathe that reeks with whiskey or vodka proliferating through one’s pores. Unless an addict has contracted a Sexually Transmitted Disease (STD) which has reached the point of being life threatening, most people would never know the person was an addict. Thus, most sex addicts are forced to suffer in silence which makes this addiction so difficult to address and heal. What a person can’t address, they can’t heal! (Every addict thinks their addiction is the worst).

What is consistent amongst sex addiction and any other addiction is pain. Whether a person chooses to use alcohol, drugs, food, gambling, shopping, sex, work or any other substance or experience; (is an addiction a vice or a substance or experience? A vice implies that an addiction is a sin, rather than a disease, or a symptom of emotional pain) at the root of the addiction is pain. Until the true source or sources of pain are identified and addressed, the addictive cycle cannot be broken and the addiction will continue. Unfortunately, because of the addiction, (the ego seeks to support the addict in their addictions) addicts are masterminds at putting up walls both externally and internally to prevent others and themselves from getting to the source(s) of pain.

I grew up in what is becoming the “norm” in most American households, being raised by a single-parent. Thankfully, after my parent’s divorce, my mom was able to provide everything I needed and almost everything I wanted because of her education and spiritual upbringing. However, there was one thing neither she nor anyone else could provide, the unconditional love and support I longed for from my father. While my father was in my life at significant times, he wasn’t there on a consistent basis providing the nurturing only a father could provide which had a tremendous emotional impact.

Nevertheless, through God’s grace and my mom’s guidance and sacrifice I was able to excel in almost every area of my life. With academic scholarships I graduated with a BA in chemistry from Grinnell College and a MBA from Rice University. On the surface it appeared my life was perfect. Yet, I was hiding an addiction. (If you are hiding something then you believe no one knows. You don’t need both)

Thankfully, I realized my addiction was going to prevent me from having the most successful aspect of life: having my own family. Through support from mentors and close friends I went to therapy. It wasn’t until I went to a second therapist who wasn’t trying to treat my addiction, but rather the sources of pain which were the root of my addiction, did I find peace. Now, my relationship with my father is better than it has ever been and I haven’t had to deal with the effects of sex addiction in over two years.

In Sex and Surrender: An Addict’s Journey, I candidly describe how sex addiction played itself out in my life. While I’m definitely not proud of the behavior I engaged in as a sex addict, I left nothing to the imagination in the book. I wanted other sex addicts to be able to see themselves and those being affected by the addict’s behavior to know some of the signs. I believe God puts us all on this earth for a purpose. My purpose and mission is to share my story, provide hope and help others being affected by addiction directly or indirectly.

Addictions can be broken! What I am both grateful and proud of are the 4-Steps which I created from my experiences and God’s grace. Those steps allowed me to break the addictive cycle and get the help I needed to get to the root of my pain. For example: Step 1 – re/establishing a relationship with God, and the other steps can be found under the “4-STEPS” tab at sexsurrender.com. Also, the first chapter of Sex and Surrender can be downloaded, for free.

When addicts take personal responsibility for their actions and do not blame others or prior situations for their addiction, they can have peace and gain what everyone wants; LOVE.

About the Author

A.D. Burks is a native Texan and true Renaissance man. After earning a degree in Chemistry from Grinnell College, he pursued a music career while teaching in the Atlanta, Nashville and Houston public school systems. A.D. has a Master’s in Business Administration from Rice University, and works for Chevron oil as a corporate real estate developer. With Sex & Surrender, A.D. returns to his first love, and what he considers his calling — creativity and spiritual growth. In this book, he shares life lessons and experiences he has learned along the way. A.D. has spoken locally and regionally on the connection between HIV and sex addiction.

This article was originally published in Recovery Today Online.

MBSFood: Sex Addiction – The Naked Truth Revealed with author A.D. Burks

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Celebrities like Tiger Woods, Kobe Bryant, George Michael, Michael Douglas, Eric Benet, Charlie Sheen, Ted Haggard, David Duchovny, and Jesse James. What do they all allegedly have in common? They each had an addiction that almost ruined their lives and the lives of the people around them. While the media revealed these sexual indiscretions for the whole world to see, they stopped short of analyzing the root of this addiction. Too often we don’t hear the documented progress these men have made in picking up the pieces of their broken lives. Although it might be beneficial to see the progress, recovery doesn’t make great headlines. So observers are left to make assumptions without all the relevant pieces to this most complex sex addiction puzzle. For National Recovery Month, we will go deeper to reveal the naked truth.

In Sex and Surrender: An Addict’s Journey, author A.D. Burks graphically recounts his addictive cycle, which lasted roughly twelve years, and almost ended his life. Through a dream Burks realized he had to find a way out. Therapy and spiritual counseling gave him temporary respite and inspired him to devise a four-step process to manage his addiction. Yet Burks’ true breakthrough came when the root of his pain was uncovered and he realized that sex does not equal love. During this show highlighting recovery, Burks will provide us with tidbits from his book to give us a taste of his addiction and recovery process.

A.D. Burks is a native Texan and renaissance man. He sang with the Grinnell Singers at Carnegie Hall, earned a Bachelors degree in Chemistry and an MBA from Rice University. Through Sex & Surrender, Burks returns to what he considers his calling — to use his life lessons to inspire creativity and spiritual growth. To learn more, go to www.sexsurrender.com.

Listen to the interview on Blog Talk Radio.

In Depth Interview with Nikki Leigh

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Listen in as A. D. Burks explains the what it means to truly be for love

Welcome to Ready for Love Radio with Love and Relationship Coach, Nikki Leigh.

Let me Introduce Myself – I am a Certified Love & Relationship Coach and a Certified Master Sexpert. I work with single and married, men and women to help them understand themselves better and to improve their personal & business relationships. I’m an award winning author of 30+ books – fiction, non-fiction, business and relationship topics. For much more information, visit http://www.nikkileighauthor.com

Let Me Tell You A Little Information About the Show

Before you consider whether your partner is Mr. or Ms. Right, take a look in the mirror. Are YOU ready for love? We each have our own unique “love print” – it is developed through past experiences, hopes, dreams and passions. Whether you’re single and looking – or involved in a relationship, you’ll find out how to be Ready for Love and begin your journey on the road to your ideal relationship.

The purpose of the show is to help you understand yourself better to prepare for a relationship or to improve an existing relationship. It is also to share information that will help you learn and understand more about love, relationships, sex and intimacy.

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Start Each Day with Step 1

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During my freshman year of college, Grinnell was celebrating its sesquicentennial anniversary. 150 years for any institution of higher learning is definitely a reason to celebrate. In an effort to keep successful alumni engaged with the college, an interim session was held between the fall and spring semesters with a curriculum which was taught by alum.

In that the sessions were taught by alum, the teaching styles weren’t always in the lecture format. Often times, when information is presented in a non-traditional manner, it has a greater impact. In one of my sessions two physicians were the instructors and they informed us that the next class would be head early in the morning and we would need to meet them at a designated spot on campus with our running shoes on. Since I was athletic, I was immediately intrigued to see what these doctors had in store for the next class. When I got to the designated spot with the rest of the class, we were instructed to run around the campus. It was during this class that I learned one of the most valuable lessons in life: DO THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS OF YOUR DAY FIRST! One of the doctors told the class that our health should be one of the most important aspects of our lives and we should start the day by putting it first because once the day gets started things will start occurring which you hadn’t planned for.

He was right and I still today workout first thing in the morning after I Start Each Day with STEP 1. My relationship with God is the most important part of my life. Therefore, I start my day with reading Our Daily Bread Devotionals and praying afterward. I chose Our Daily Bread because the devotionals not only relate to daily issues, trials and tribulations that everyone goes through; but they also have scripture reading that apply to the topics. I go back to the thought that if I can see myself in a given situation, I’m more likely to be able to relate and grasp the concept or message God is trying to convey to me.

It never fails when I’m going through a particular rough patch in my life, I’ll read the morning devotion and it will speak directly to the situation. While this works for me and I would suggest it to anyone looking for a way to start the day with STEP 1, I realize that everybody’s relationship with God is not going to look like mine. However, I do believe that there is something everyone can do to start the day with STEP 1; re/establishing a relationship with God. For some individuals it might mean meditating. For others it might be taking a walk along the beach or in a park. What matters is spending time focusing on connecting with God.

What if you don’t know what exactly works best for you? SEEK GOD’S GUIDANCE! He will tell you. As the Bible says: seek and ye shall find; knock and the door will be opened unto you. You have not because you ask not. Often my biggest stumbling block was not my inability to hear from God, but my lack of patience in hearing Him. Remember this is a relationship; it takes work on both parts. However, I’ve learned God is always willing to do His part. Am I willing to do my part is the real question?

I can’t stress enough how important STEP 1 is in breaking the addictive cycle. Taking the first step always seems difficult because we are creatures of habit. Breaking non-beneficial habits can be uncomfortable and frightening. Yet, God is waiting to comfort you and He’ll send people and messages along the journey to inspire you and keep you on the right path. For resources to help you along the path, look under the Helpful Tools section.

Helping others in the Journey,

A.D. Burks

Breaking the Cycle of Sex Addiction – Boston Edge Interview

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As a culture, we are no strangers to addiction narratives. We can readily access stories about personal battles with drugs and alcohol, whether it be from an autobiography, the Internet, a magazine or even personal experience – we all understand, at least to some extent, the damage and pain inflicted by substance abuse.

And yet, there is little information or dialog about a different kind of addiction entirely – sex addiction. Save for Steve McQueen’s 2011 film, “Shame,” there are few accounts of the struggles faced by sex addicts. Therefore, A.D. Burks’ new memoir, “Sex and Surrender: An Addicts Journey” makes for compelling reading.

Born and raised in the socially conservative American south, Burks is a fledgling writer, and his memoir chronicles the pain and hardship induced by his addiction to sex, as well as his struggles with his homosexuality, and eventual recovery from addiction – a journey inspired by a devout faith grounded in the Christian church. Furthermore, Burks’ narrative functions as a self-help guide, in which he details a “four-step” journey towards recovery.

EDGE caught up with Burks to discuss his unique journey, inspiring recovery and future plans.

EDGE: Let’s start with some background — can you talk a little bit about your life before your addiction, and what you think instigated your addiction?
A.D. Burks: I am an only child, and I had a very strict and religious upbringing – my grandfather was a Baptist minister in Tennessee. My parents divorced when I was four years old, and my dad was in and out. Prior to the addiction, I was a model student. I was in the choir, played football, and I graduated in the top 5% of my class. In terms of sex, I had no knowledge — my background for sex came via neighborhood friends, and we would watch porn and stuff. The addiction began right after college, and I was still experimenting with men. And the girl I loved was bi-sexual, and we started going to gay clubs, etc., so I became involved that way.
EDGE: Can you talk a little about what readers can expect from your memoir? What do you think sets it apart?
A.D. Burks: Beyond just the details, I also discuss what was behind the addiction. My memoir goes to the root of the pain, for example, accepting my sexuality. I also give a four-step process of how to break the cycle of addiction.
EDGE: What motivated you to write it?
A.D. Burks: It was actually a dream. I had gone out with friends — one was an ex- and high school friend, and she didn’t know. And I dreamt after that I got caught having sex in my mom’s house, and I was put on trial — there were members of church and stuff. And when I woke up I realized that I needed to get it out.
EDGE: What is the overarching message or theme that you want your readers to take away from this book?
A.D. Burks: There are two things; addiction is equal to pain, and until they get to the root cause addiction will always be there. And also that sex isn’t equal to love.
EDGE: Was it difficult being so candid about your sex life?
A.D. Burks: It wasn’t initially, because I am very open and honest. But the backlash from people, including my mom, wasn’t great. They definitely found it difficult.
EDGE: Can you talk more about your addiction and recovery process? Was there a moment when you knew that you had hit rock bottom?
A.D. Burks: The thing that got me to go to therapy was friends in grad school, and the thing for me was that I always wanted to go to therapy, and I didn’t have a “rock bottom moment” — I was never arrested and I never caught an STD. I realized, however, that I wouldn’t have a family, and that was a scary realization. And death always brings thing into focus, and I was at my uncle’s funeral. And I realized that if I lost my mother, I’d be alone. And I wanted to build that family. Luckily right now I am in a good relationship. My partner is more private, but what is important is having God in my relationship.
EDGE: Has the book changed your life? And in what ways?
A.D. Burks: It has definitely freed me! I had kept my gay friends away from my straight friends, but now the worlds have merged. So it has definitely made my life better.
EDGE: Can you talk more about your “four step process,” which you created to help people fight sex addiction?
A.D. Burks: For me it goes back to establishing a relationship with God, and of course I can only speak in terms of Christianity, and spirituality is a personal thing. Once you do that, He will direct your path. The second thing is to abstain from sex until you are in a healthy place. The third step is walking away from triggers — watching porn is one. Step four is about creating a support network — so I had to be open and honest with certain people, and I’d lean on them for support. It is crucial, because you can’t do it alone.
EDGE: What’s next for you? More writing?
A.D. Burks: Oh yes, I am working on a book on the “four steps.” The purpose of the memoir is for other people to see themselves in the book. I am working on a self-help and recovery book.
EDGE: Where can people purchase the book?
A.D. Burks: You can get it at Amazon or Barnes and Noble, or on my website sexsurrender.com.
Originally published in The Boston Edge
by Douglas  Baulf. Contributor
Tuesday Feb 18, 2014